I got in touch with a colleague of mine who flirted with me 100 times and I too responded in the same way, and somewhere in the back of my mind and heart I lost control. Subconsciously I started loving her - I gave her flowers on valentines day, gave her gifts, wished on all special days of her. I gave up alcohol just for her.
Then came the day she broke the big news - she was engaged already to someone else and all this to her was just fun. I knew it was fun but subconsciously I lost control, maybe this is love I wondered, I asked myself 1000 times what love is...I still dont know.
I cried like a baby, covering myself with a blanket so that no-one knew and I still couldn't belive I was so badly hurt that I cried...but i dont regret any of this, its all part of life.